It feels like new wiring got installed and the energy runs through me
not only differently but that the energy is turning on parts of me not
connected before. Like an awakening. Which makes sense given I had
reached the bottom of the abyss.
Why do I get this feeling that once the way back up is begun there is
no turning back? Because of course there is not. Now I consciously
begin the process of choosing what structure my life takes. There is
joy and sadness in my heart. And a good healthy dose of scared shitless.
She calls me. I am Hers.